if at first we dont succeed try and try again..

so here I am, with renewed vigour to take uup the challenge of losing weight again. It seems I am always in a constant battle with my weightloss, sometimes I think it's possibly something medical, more often than not it's probably something psychological.... I used to spend so much time soothing my emotional wears and tears with food and instantly gratifying myself in the same manner. I know all of these patterns are extremely unhealthy and unfortunately food was one of the few coping mechanisms I relied heavily on. Smoking and Alcohol being the others. My time line for the weightloss has also changed due to my trip being delayed, for now,..so I have set up the goal of 10 lbs a month, over a 9 month period. As of this morning I weighed in at 250.8 I have been lucky enough to maintain with in the 250 range since I have been off my diet, but it has been hard, energy drinks helped back on the pounds rather fast since they are 250 calories for the big cans I was drinking. So I have sat down and tried to think of a plan one that I know I could actually put into practice and this is what I came up with.

Diet: I decided to switch to the flat belly diet that is being put out by the editors of prevention magazine. One of my coworkers is doing it and has lost weight. I will be throwing in a twist, as I will still be taking the 3 Alli pills a day with the 3 main meals of the flat belly diet

Excercise: as far as excercise goes I am going back on the wii fit I know I am not physically fit enough to do any real running or advanced aerobics, The simple we fit excercises aren't hard on my knees either which is another plus. If after 2 months I notice a sufficient weight loss and feel as if my body can handle it I will join 24 hr fitness and go from there doing the elliptical and the treadmill and some weight training.

Today (sunday) I am unable to start the diet because of work and the fact I haven't gone grocery shopping. I've started reading the Flat Belly Diet book while I am here at work and have photocopied the grocery list for the first 4 days, I will go grocery shopping tomorrow afternoon after I've slept and will pick up the things I need for the next 4 days then I will go through and pick out the grocery lists for each consecutive week. I feel a stronger sense of commitment this time around maybe its the medication perking me up and helping me find clarity and direction in my life. So I guess I'll do a quick rundown of the basics again and will update them with the wiifit information on another blog.

weight:250.8
bmi:41.73

Day 5: An exercise in Bad Habits

So normally this is where I would get down on myself about bad habits, from the large order of fries and steakhouse burger from burgerking last night... to the 1/3 a bag of Poore Brothers salt and pepper potato chips, to the slice of apple pie with a mound of cool whip.. the list of shitty eating goes on and on today.. now at this point I'd be really upset with myself and about ready to give up.. as I didn't even want to get on the WiiFit today. But I persevered.... I was about to go to bed and say f*ckit but I didn't I got my but out of bed put on my sneakers and got on the Wii.. the results were a bit depressing as I was up 4 pounds sigh.. I had lost about 2-4 so far but I figured I deserved to see that number My habits were bad, to much fast food and not enough real home cooked meals. But I went on, I did 30 mins of WiiFit and got on with things. I took my vitamin and am getting ready for bed, I do have plans to get on the WiiFit again tomorrow morning and pick up where I left off. I have to remind myself, Goal... I have a goal I want to attain.

I went to the grocery store and picked up the few items I need to cook meals from the Eat Clean magazine and will go back tomorrow as I forgot to pick up a few pieces of fruit and some carrots and celery (maybe some hummus?) to snack on .. that way I steer away from chips and other bath sweets.. I have also been bad as I have been drinking soda when I promised myself I would lay off.. ... But I will try harder.. Thursday is my weigh in for the week, I'd atleast like to be down 2-3 pounds and 5-6 the following week, I have to remind myself constantly that this won't happen over night, I won't become a size 12 immediately.. I will have to work at this. Being the type of person who prefers instant gratification weight loss was always hard because I found that if I didn't see the results I wanted right away I'd get pissy and give up. I can't do that this time. No seat belt extender for this girl on her trip to the Uk to see her sweetie. lol.. Plus I saw the cutest outfit that I'd love to be able to wear, came in a size 18-20 still bigger than I'd like to be but If i can be a size 18 by my trip I'll be ecstatic :) so alas I must be good, If I want this to be lasting I must work at it. So my friends untill tomorrow..

Crappy Day 2...

So I am still unwell and not feeling my best, so I have yet to get on the wii or even watch what i ate, ..
I had 1/2 a grilled chicken sandwich and a few cold fries that made me think they were super gross. I have had 1/2 a liter of 7-up though as i am trying to stop my stomach from hurting, but never fear I do have a huge bottle of H20 here waiting to be imbibed. Hopefully tomorrow if I am well I will get on the wiifit and get back on the diet schedule tomorrow if not Tuesday at the latest.

So Today started out as a crappy day but I managed to semi improve it
I got home from work about an hour again and changed and got on the WiiFit. I did 35 minutes of aerobic exercises as well as some yoga and strength training. I have a good sweat going on but I am semi starving. I haven't eaten much today except for that liter of 7 up and the 1/2 a grilled sandwich, I decided I have a healthy choice steamer in the freezer so I will have that for dinner. it has about 240 calories,8 grams of fat 5 grams of dietary fiber and 17 g of protein.. I have already started to have a huge glass of water, I have gone about 1 day with out getting on the wiifit but got back on today. I will do it again tomorrow probably after work as i doubt I'll have time in the morning. I am pretty proud of myself, despite not feeling the best, I still got back on the wii. Only down side is i feel my asthma actin up but that's because I am so heavy. Hopefully if i keep this up by my next weigh in on Friday I'll actually see some weight loss.

Been feeling a little emo lately because I am so scared I won't meet my goal 50 lbs down by mid April. But on the flip side I'm excited that I am actually doing it and working on the goal... I need to go grocery shopping though I cant survive on take out and micro meals and hope to lose weight. So Tuesday is my day off and will go grocery shopping then.

My Fit Challenge Day One..

Now officially my first day should have been yesterday but seeing that it was Thanksgiving there was no way in hell I was going to be able to maintain healthy eating habits along with trying to find a way to fit in time to jump on the WiiFit. So despite my desire to stay curled up under my blankets this morning before I actually had to get my butt in gear for work I rolled out of bed (quite sluggishly I might add), searched out my tennis shoes and jumped onto the Wii. I did about 20 mins on the WiiFit, then proceeded to get ready for work. So I guess I should progress with todays food diary

Breakfast:
1/2 Cup oatmeal
1/2 cup 2% milk
1 tsp cashew butter
1 tsp honey
1/4 cup frozen berries (thawed)

The recipe called for almond butter but unfortunately I didn't get a chance to run to the natural food store to pick up what I needed. Lunch is going to be a Healthy Choice Steamer Micro meal, totally against what the clean eating wants you to have since it's processed.. Also grabbed an orange. Am trying to not have any soda today...so I've started on my first bottle of water. I got my newest issue of Clean Eating Magazine so I will go through last months issue and this months and make a grocery list.

Lunch:
Healthy Choice Steamer: Grilled Chicken, Linquine, Broccoli with red pepper alfredo
280 calories
6g of fat
22g of Protein

Already lunchtime and i'm barely 1/2 way through my first bottle of water, blah. my water intake isnt' very good. Doesn't help I'm emo as hell today, though has nothing to do with the diet.. I took my vitamin and my St. John's Wort to help with my mood, I think I need another dosage of that. I still have 4.5 hours of work left and will then have to go home and cook dinner. FFS I have no idea what I am going to cook, will sort something out, maybe some grilled talapia, veggies and rice..

well dinner sucked, I ended up eating turkey day left overs over indulged a bit sighs.. was good till i left work had an orange about 2 hours before i left work though i still didn't drink more that 750ml of water.. and broke down and had a glass of Coca-cola when i got home.. sighs.. was doing alright till i got home.. maybe tomorrow i will do better, :)

The Pre-Diet Entry

General Information:

Age:29

Weight:255

BMI: 43